I sometimes still can’t believe that I’m actually pregnant. 30 weeks seems so much closer to baby being here than 28 or 29 weeks. A woman I work with has a daughter that was pregnant with twins and just delivered them at 29 weeks. One baby was 2lbs the other was 1lb. The 2lb baby actually got extubated (no breathing tube) and the 1lb baby is still on the ventilator. I guess they are doing pretty well. It just is so crazy. I got to thinking, what if baby boy decided to come now. I thought I was ready, but I feel no where mentally ready to this baby yet. Then I start over thinking things, and I scare myself. I get scared thinking about the labor and delivery mostly. My MD asked me my last appt if I had a birth plan and my answer was my birth plan was to not have a plan. I feel like if I have a specific plan in mind and try to control things it will stress me out even more, so I’m trying to go with the flow. This post is kind of rambling, but it’s so weird how this week things are starting to feel more real.
The baby is moving around like crazy these days. I still can’t really tell what body parts are what! He get’s the hiccups a lot more often too… it’s pretty cute! I’m starting to get pretty tired towards the end of the day. My back has been hurting and causing me most of my discomfort. I’ve also noticed my ankles and feet have been swollen after my 12 hour shifts. I starting wearing support hose (which I should wear all the time anyway) which will hopefully help with some of the swelling.
Hope everyone has a fabulous weekend!